November 28th... Was it really the last time I updated? Seems longer than that.. No matter. In the process of dispelling false rumors... A lot happened over the course of time.. My my, it's flying quite fast.. Where to begin... Meh. I won't worry about it. Anyone who really cares would actually come to me and ask. I shouldn't rely on this site to express feelings no one will comprehend or respond to. But as a final meaningful entry...

I finally know the error of my ways.

All throughout my childhood I grew up reading stories and watching movies and developing my own dating principles on those of ancient chivalry and fairytale romance. All throughout school and my life i never knew true self-acceptance and relied on the company of another to make me whole. And thus, the combination of rejection, fairytales and falsehood hopes and dreams I had developed, I never developed a grasp on the reality of dating. I never developed a sense of pace... and my emotions develop faster than most.. No one seems to understand it... and there has always been a sense of something missing. I'll wait for someone to find me... but I can't wait forever. I'm not sure whether to wait for someone here or to be afraid of being found by someone here... Anyone I've dated here... has merely misunderstood me. and the female race here is unbelievably tainted, corrupted and hollow.. some more severely than others, some hardly noticable. Either way.. I'm waiting. For someone.