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JT39137
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Name: Jonathan
Country: United States
State: Maryland
Metro: Cecil County
Birthday: 11/25/1988
Gender: Male
Interests: Games, girls, family, school, pursuing myself, making and keeping friends, meeting new people, games, Battlefront, music, chorus, social interaction, puzzles, wishing I had a sister, wishing my stepmom wasn't hardheaded, wishing my dad wasn't hardheaded, wishing my brother wasn't hardheaded, wishing society wasn't hardheaded, nostalgia, anything PC...
Expertise: Flash! 3D Studio! Pinnacle Studio 9! Startopia! SW Battlefront! Singing the bass part in choir!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  jt39137
AIM:  darkestme88
AIM:  driretln1988
Yahoo:  jt39137@yahoo.com
Member Since:
9/3/2005
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| Okay, so what next?Yea... Back from NYC. Back to xanga apparantly too. We split up. It hurt.. but felt necesarry.. I happened to be the wedge.. In light of recent events I had come to realize that I have weaknesses.. and that there will always be a limit to my emotions, no matter how deep they go.. forgive me. I am but a lost soul. All I have left to say is that I cannot stay in one place for too long.. and I learned that a relationship parallels with the importance and tolerance of family. | | |
| aiyaiyai... why does my xanga still live? | | |
| November 28th... Was it really the last time I updated? Seems longer than that.. No matter. In the process of dispelling false rumors... A lot happened over the course of time.. My my, it's flying quite fast.. Where to begin... Meh. I won't worry about it. Anyone who really cares would actually come to me and ask. I shouldn't rely on this site to express feelings no one will comprehend or respond to. But as a final meaningful entry...
I finally know the error of my ways.
All throughout my childhood I grew up reading stories and watching movies and developing my own dating principles on those of ancient chivalry and fairytale romance. All throughout school and my life i never knew true self-acceptance and relied on the company of another to make me whole. And thus, the combination of rejection, fairytales and falsehood hopes and dreams I had developed, I never developed a grasp on the reality of dating. I never developed a sense of pace... and my emotions develop faster than most.. No one seems to understand it... and there has always been a sense of something missing. I'll wait for someone to find me... but I can't wait forever. I'm not sure whether to wait for someone here or to be afraid of being found by someone here... Anyone I've dated here... has merely misunderstood me. and the female race here is unbelievably tainted, corrupted and hollow.. some more severely than others, some hardly noticable. Either way.. I'm waiting. For someone. | | |
| Oi... Saw SAW 2 yesterday... it was gory as hell, gave me a helluva night's sleep, I'll tell ya... Meh. Tired. Don't feel like updating. :/ | | |
| Thanks everyone... Birthday went great yesterday.. Got applications for a couple jobs, Jakes and Concord Pet.
I recieved an 80 gig hard drive for my PC (yes! more room!) and now I can burn DVD's!
Going to see Harry Potter today...
Here's a first-- me wearing a purple shirt?
It's a dark black/purple shirt with a light blue/gray really intricate but huge dragon design on it, one of 3. a blue one, gray one and violet one all with the same pattern. Wearing it to the movies today...
Going shopping for digital stuff with my grandparents since they couldn't understand the computer literate babble on my birthday wish list (lol).. So anyway...
Had a massive headache the night before my birthday.. Woke up to my phone vibrating.... WHO CALLED ME AT EXACTLY MIDNIGHT that night?!?!?! Who does that..? | | |
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